Waking up

God you know sometimes I just don't understand life. And sometimes it just makes perfect sense. And sometimes I just want to scream at it to pick a side already. Life sucks, ya know? But life could be wonderful. I guess it's how you take it. Some days you just can't find the will to keep on smiling and you just can't see the meaning in living anymore. But then there are other days where you know you need to keep on living. Just to see that person one more time or make someone laugh one more time or to see you baby cousins one last time. And soon enough that last time just keeps going and going until you find yourself saying the same thing for the hundredth time. But by then you're like, what the hell? I've lasted this long, why could another day hurt? And so you survive one more day. Each day is a battle but every time you wake up, every time you take a breath, your winning a battle. Some just take longer time than others and some are way harder to do. Some days you have to focus on just surviving and others you can live, even laugh and smile. But every day is a battle and whether you wake up the next day is the victory. If you can't live for yourself anymore, live for someone you love, someone you don't ever want to see hurt and it might just make living a little less unbearable. Just take it step by step and day by day, not week by week or year by year, because if you do that, it will be so overwhelming. Just remember, waking up everyday is winning that battle, and someone is going to appreciate you having the strength to win it.

Till next time,

your pal Wendy